Wednesday, 1 February 2017

A False Start

As January draws to a close I have to admit that it hasn't quite been the start to 2017 that I was hoping for (in fact I've been feeling a little deflated!)! Instead of feeling the optimism that I wanted to I was feeling tired and fed up of being ill, I'd only just started getting back to normal after 10 days of an extremely sore throat when a cold struck (it was only minor but still an inconvenience). I was also feeling annoyed with myself, mainly for the state I've let my house get into, for the piles of washing that litter the floor, the unwashed dishes and general untidiness (I used to be houseproud but it seems that is another thing PND has decided to kick to the curb). Mum had offered to help get me back on top of it over Christmas but I said no because I feel like this time I have to bite the bullet and do it "All by myseeelf" (hehe, sorry!) and now I'm feeling better I know that I will, no matter how long it takes!!
I've also been feeling very unhealthy, sluggish, dehydrated and like I've been doing myself a disservice. I'd gotten it into my head that I needed to make so many changes to my lifestyle, routine (or lack of) and general thinking but it all felt too much, too overwhelming, so instead of being ready for the fight I allowed it all to weigh me down and then I procrastinated and did nothing (other than forgetting to cut myself some slack)!!
And now? Well after talking things over with my closest friends I'm feeling more at peace! I'm starting to focus on completing one tiny bit of the jigsaw at a time, knowing that someday soon I'll take a step back and be able to see how beautiful the bigger picture has become!! I need to remember that I can only do so much and that first and foremost I need to look after myself so that I can take care of those I hold dear!
I'm once again feeling encouraged to enthusiastically keep plugging away at my goals!!
February - I'm coming for you!!

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  1. Glad you're feeling better, wish I could shrug off my cough and cold. Stop setting too many targets they just overwhelm you. Just small steps remember. I would have helped you not to criticise you but just to help make life easier for you. You will get there but as you said it can only come from you. Just keep plugging away at it. Mum XXX

    1. Thank you mum!! Xxx Oh no are you still hanging onto it!! You're right, of course!! I know you weren't criticising!! I will and I'll phone you soon!! Xxxx